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Closer...
When we were little child, we believed that we won’t be alone; we can became a member in a companionship and we will make friendships with eachother. We believed that if we find friends than we won’t be ever alone, it will be our little family. We grew up to this thought and it come true but there were problems, some barrier and we couldn’t remove these and we failed. The bond between us were ruptured and nobody maked a step to make the situation better, to become one. Our secret was that: we believed that everything will be good, but only the waiting remained.
Kollár Barbara
Music:
Eddie Vedder - End of the road
I had always a life line and when I was desperate, it was a good thing to hold to myself. We were aware of that it is ourtime, our soul are made for eachother. He is able to deal with the perfect moments, I’ve tired it when I was in an alcoholic, intoxicated moment . I was thinking about the beautiful memories – again. I know, that he wanted to push me from himself but he knew that he can’t. He cherished my soul in secret, he reassured me not to lose myself yet, I am already my old self, the crazy person who can crumble through the walls. I become that person what I want to be in my life – I wanted to give faith that he could feel something. So, we all knew that it is ourtime.
We hold eachother’s hand tightly, in our thoughts, we knew that we have a strong relationship. Nobody wants to show that we are weak, but it can be a beautiful feeling – became weak and fail in life. I think, we all felt that we loved eachother, we estimated the others. Our closeness was the life line which was able to connected to eachother and I wish deeply in my soul that our friendship will survive the life.
I played with a thought that can I give one chance to my soul that maybe once in the end my soul able to merge with other souls, can I get more pretty memories where I can get more power in the future, on a harder day. Althought, those days are way too hard now… I have to get up alone in the morning, I have to complete the day to the end without barriers. Today, there isn’t any stops, smoking, rested feelings, only the thoughts stayed in me, the agony – Can I do my things which I want? I’ve tried to make friendship with the thought that after somedays we will able to keep these harmony and peace which in the behind of secrets that we desired before. My feelings are constant: today I am alone, but tomorrow it will be better.
Pszichiátria Magazint a Nemzeti Média- és Hírközlési Hatóság, nyilvántartásba vette, hivatalos elektronikus sajtótermékként!
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